It is going on 41 months since I have truly slept. I seem to be coming into a place where I am feeling that I could actually relax? It is fleeting, however, I am having small clips here and there. The never ending list of everything that always has to be taken care of. I am thinking of shelving it all…
With the exception of helping a close friend through a patch on the horizon, I’m thinking I am going to sleep this winter. And try to take care of myself, to the best of my ability.
I love the idea of you focusing on sleep this winter. Personally, when I find I'm not sleeping, it feels impossible to care for myself in other ways. Shelve it all!
Allow each moment to guide you to the next right thing. No overthinking about what we should or should not do. Stay awake, be aware, be grateful, and allow your beautiful life to unfold….one moment at a time. ❤️
Yessssss! This post is so utterly resonant— I’ve had every single thought you’ve had about writing— do it when it’s fresh and building other beautiful dreams and avoiding doing the damn thing and even taking the month that it would be most aligned. I get it! I just spent the entirety of Fucktober sick as I’ve ever been (covid and post covid— this year I called it Fucktover!) and was forced to give up/cancel all the things I planned to do in service this month, this 10th year, because I felt like I should mark 10 yrs without my son in some kinda way that didn’t center me and my grief at all. And my body was like oh hell no. I wonder if I had instead said “I’m taking the whole month and finally writing the damn thing” if my body would have said eff yes— since I ended up having to take the whole month off anyway!!!
Maybe year 11….
Your words here inspire and I trust deeply from an embodiment orientation that if you’re feeling the call then you know in your body and soul that you must! Go! Do! Be!
Let me know if you need a meal or supplies dropped off. ☺️
Oooh the body knows what we need, doesn't it. I told myself if I needed rest more than to write, my body would make that abundantly clear.
It's always so interesting how we can plan to mark these big milestones in a monumental and meaningful way and then the universe/our bodies is like "NOPE." Maybe for you, the book is on year 10, month 1?
It feels like you know it is time. You have done so much for everyone else, especially building an amazing community, it seems like this needs to be done for you.
You know it and I (I would say for one, but I think I speak for everyone) cannot wait to see the result.
My Husband Matt and I were on the same page “nearly” with every step of life. Our social calendar boomed but when we were tired as hard as it seemed to say NO we did. Other times we said oh we got this we only live once- let’s suck it up and send it.
My one thing as the task,jobs,events pile up I simply think - what would Matt and I do if he was with me right now. Well he must be because decision making is hard at times but I just stop and think, together we would have said this….
My one true sentence for today:
I want to sleep.
It is going on 41 months since I have truly slept. I seem to be coming into a place where I am feeling that I could actually relax? It is fleeting, however, I am having small clips here and there. The never ending list of everything that always has to be taken care of. I am thinking of shelving it all…
With the exception of helping a close friend through a patch on the horizon, I’m thinking I am going to sleep this winter. And try to take care of myself, to the best of my ability.
We shall see.
Write the book Dana.
I’d love to read Brad’s three chapters as well.
I love your word NO-vember!
Thank you for all you share.
I appreciate you.
I love the idea of you focusing on sleep this winter. Personally, when I find I'm not sleeping, it feels impossible to care for myself in other ways. Shelve it all!
Allow each moment to guide you to the next right thing. No overthinking about what we should or should not do. Stay awake, be aware, be grateful, and allow your beautiful life to unfold….one moment at a time. ❤️
As a wild overthinker, this is a hard concept to grasp, but one I strive to reach. One moment at a time.
Yessssss! This post is so utterly resonant— I’ve had every single thought you’ve had about writing— do it when it’s fresh and building other beautiful dreams and avoiding doing the damn thing and even taking the month that it would be most aligned. I get it! I just spent the entirety of Fucktober sick as I’ve ever been (covid and post covid— this year I called it Fucktover!) and was forced to give up/cancel all the things I planned to do in service this month, this 10th year, because I felt like I should mark 10 yrs without my son in some kinda way that didn’t center me and my grief at all. And my body was like oh hell no. I wonder if I had instead said “I’m taking the whole month and finally writing the damn thing” if my body would have said eff yes— since I ended up having to take the whole month off anyway!!!
Maybe year 11….
Your words here inspire and I trust deeply from an embodiment orientation that if you’re feeling the call then you know in your body and soul that you must! Go! Do! Be!
Let me know if you need a meal or supplies dropped off. ☺️
Oooh the body knows what we need, doesn't it. I told myself if I needed rest more than to write, my body would make that abundantly clear.
It's always so interesting how we can plan to mark these big milestones in a monumental and meaningful way and then the universe/our bodies is like "NOPE." Maybe for you, the book is on year 10, month 1?
It feels like you know it is time. You have done so much for everyone else, especially building an amazing community, it seems like this needs to be done for you.
You know it and I (I would say for one, but I think I speak for everyone) cannot wait to see the result.
Thanks so much for the encouragement Chris!
Don't postpone the importance of today. Tomorrow might never come!
so true!
I'm happy this no will lead to a yes and cannot wait to read your inspiring, most likely heartbreaking but also absolutely beautiful book.
Challenge Accepted!!
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My Husband Matt and I were on the same page “nearly” with every step of life. Our social calendar boomed but when we were tired as hard as it seemed to say NO we did. Other times we said oh we got this we only live once- let’s suck it up and send it.
My one thing as the task,jobs,events pile up I simply think - what would Matt and I do if he was with me right now. Well he must be because decision making is hard at times but I just stop and think, together we would have said this….