How ironic that you write about this, I thought an alternate version of this yesterday, ‘One truth about yourself—How are you REALLY feeling, down DEEP inside?’
Despite moving to a new house, and all of that. Despite being fortunate and grateful for many things.
And, I woke up this morning, knowing.
So, my one true sentence is:
I AM NOT HAPPY.
This doesn’t mean I’m suicidal—I’m not.
It means I’m being honest with myself:
Without my husband in my life, I’m not happy. That’s it.
If I can’t be honest with myself, then nothing works for me.
This is really powerful - and I do think it's really important to really know where we're at, deep down, otherwise how do you possibly shift? Or even know if you want to shift?
After coming to your one true sentence, did it lead to you wanting to make any changes or was there just a gentle acceptance in that fact? Curious what came up (if anything) after.
I am tired of processing and trying to accept the new realities of this life I never asked for. The tiny little things feel like death by 1000 papercuts.
Thanks for sharing this wisdom, such a good line to ask ourselves - whether written or in your head, I feel like getting the answer of one truth leans into understanding an intuition we actually do know sitting there underneath. Need to ask myself that more. Totally with ya in the cathartic rage session happening before the truth!
I feel like your post is some sort of kismet. I was thinking about Forced Joy this morning. I too have been at the bottom of the barrel lately and I was thinking how can I force some joy into my life like Dana? I use to as a young girl right my angst out...not so much anymore and I really should get back to that. Anyway, found your post and my musings interesting the timing of it all. Just know you are not alone. Thanks for sharing.
The sentence that has been rolling around in my brain the past few days is "I'm tired". Summer is my grief season. The past couple days I have been feeling tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. Yet I have so much to do that I have been procrastinating or downright ignoring and I am tired of carrying the weight of all of it. I am feeling the need to cut back on everything that is non-essential or that doesn't serve me.
How ironic that you write about this, I thought an alternate version of this yesterday, ‘One truth about yourself—How are you REALLY feeling, down DEEP inside?’
Despite moving to a new house, and all of that. Despite being fortunate and grateful for many things.
And, I woke up this morning, knowing.
So, my one true sentence is:
I AM NOT HAPPY.
This doesn’t mean I’m suicidal—I’m not.
It means I’m being honest with myself:
Without my husband in my life, I’m not happy. That’s it.
If I can’t be honest with myself, then nothing works for me.
This is really powerful - and I do think it's really important to really know where we're at, deep down, otherwise how do you possibly shift? Or even know if you want to shift?
After coming to your one true sentence, did it lead to you wanting to make any changes or was there just a gentle acceptance in that fact? Curious what came up (if anything) after.
I'm tired of doing it all by myself, it's heavy and hard and exhausting.
I have felt this on many days too.
I am tired, want to hide under a rock, and I am above ground, breathing, moving forward.
I know the feeling. I’m exhausted, yet doing.
I am so bone tired exhausted, I am so sick of feeling this way and I really miss who I used to be.
This is how I am too
"Who wants to read about grief all of the time?" Ummm, me?
It just keep going, this thing called grief, rippling out into new parts of life and old alike.
Yes Ben, that too.. <3
Yes, Ben. So do I. Rippling. All the way out.
I am afraid I will never find a job that I want and my insecurity about it is fueling the whole cycle of not finding the job I want
My excitement about the future leads me to feel DEEP gratitude in each moment, and still a distinct fear that it will all come crumbling down.
I am doing the best I can . . . and I can do better.
ooh the "both/and" of this statement.
I am broken.
You are not alone 💛
And thank you for sharing this brave sentence that so many of us understand.
I am not who I wanted or thought I would be (primarily as a parent at the moment) but who I have to be
I imagine this is relatable to a lot of others here - balancing who you want to be vs who you need to be in the moment you're in 💛
I am tired of processing and trying to accept the new realities of this life I never asked for. The tiny little things feel like death by 1000 papercuts.
"death by 1000 papercuts" - yes.
Thanks for sharing this wisdom, such a good line to ask ourselves - whether written or in your head, I feel like getting the answer of one truth leans into understanding an intuition we actually do know sitting there underneath. Need to ask myself that more. Totally with ya in the cathartic rage session happening before the truth!
Also, my current one has been that I just need to be in this one moment, no need to think too far ahead.
I completely agree, although I am a mega planner and it’s one of my coping strategies, not thinking too far ahead stops me spiralling
Oh my goodness me too! Definitely a work in progress to come back to the present moment and get carried away with planning/worrying.
me too!
ooh working on this one.
I feel like your post is some sort of kismet. I was thinking about Forced Joy this morning. I too have been at the bottom of the barrel lately and I was thinking how can I force some joy into my life like Dana? I use to as a young girl right my angst out...not so much anymore and I really should get back to that. Anyway, found your post and my musings interesting the timing of it all. Just know you are not alone. Thanks for sharing.
Writing my angst out has been my therapy for so many years. If you get back to it, I'd be curious what comes up for you (and forcing joy).
The sentence that has been rolling around in my brain the past few days is "I'm tired". Summer is my grief season. The past couple days I have been feeling tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. Yet I have so much to do that I have been procrastinating or downright ignoring and I am tired of carrying the weight of all of it. I am feeling the need to cut back on everything that is non-essential or that doesn't serve me.