As always, this is so witty and funny written about a part of grief that can make the wisest go bonkers. I echoe @Julia's words above, this piece made me smile. Thank you for putting it into words, @Dana!
The prospect of growing old on my own is not very appealing, but neither is the thought of dating someone my age at my age ... I think everything owns its time though. I think there will come a time when I get completely fed up with hanging out with me, myself and I, when the thought of being with someone else but D, doesn't want me to vomit, and the missing has eased a bit. Maybe then I'll expose myself to love again. Maybe then I'll find someone to grow old with.
Well, well. Channeling my inner thoughts this morning are you? As usual. Always interesting how these thoughts, words and experiences manifest themselves. All this and more was actually running through my mind earlier at o’dark-thirty this morning. And I can answer with a resounding yes to everything you’ve written & shared here. Same, same. For today, I have my two best girls. (Pups) I’m 3 1/2 years in since my husband died. My world is shifting. Towards something that is definitely different. Lighter? Moments of ease? A new freedom on the horizon? Hard to articulate. I feel it. A new partner though…? I don’t believe so. I’m further down the road age wise. And I’m just not willing to get into what a new relationship entails. Also, this last time, I had won the lottery. It would be hard to even come close. And just for today, that’s ok. Thank you for all you share. And for making me laugh out loud! You were the first person to do that after my husband’s death.
I absolutely love the sentence: Find community, get a vibrator, go on adventures, live wildly, make mistakes.
Thank you so much for sharing this Dana! I don’t like the idea of growing old alone but want to get use to the idea and be content if that’s the case. I am considering dipping my toe into the dating world, but does seem like a completely messy, foreign world. Like Julia said above, I had my soulmate and he set the bar high. 💙
As always, this is so witty and funny written about a part of grief that can make the wisest go bonkers. I echoe @Julia's words above, this piece made me smile. Thank you for putting it into words, @Dana!
The prospect of growing old on my own is not very appealing, but neither is the thought of dating someone my age at my age ... I think everything owns its time though. I think there will come a time when I get completely fed up with hanging out with me, myself and I, when the thought of being with someone else but D, doesn't want me to vomit, and the missing has eased a bit. Maybe then I'll expose myself to love again. Maybe then I'll find someone to grow old with.
Both/and, right?? I think living in the "maybe then" can be a good place to exist.
Well, well. Channeling my inner thoughts this morning are you? As usual. Always interesting how these thoughts, words and experiences manifest themselves. All this and more was actually running through my mind earlier at o’dark-thirty this morning. And I can answer with a resounding yes to everything you’ve written & shared here. Same, same. For today, I have my two best girls. (Pups) I’m 3 1/2 years in since my husband died. My world is shifting. Towards something that is definitely different. Lighter? Moments of ease? A new freedom on the horizon? Hard to articulate. I feel it. A new partner though…? I don’t believe so. I’m further down the road age wise. And I’m just not willing to get into what a new relationship entails. Also, this last time, I had won the lottery. It would be hard to even come close. And just for today, that’s ok. Thank you for all you share. And for making me laugh out loud! You were the first person to do that after my husband’s death.
I absolutely love the sentence: Find community, get a vibrator, go on adventures, live wildly, make mistakes.
I’m adding: and go to CrossFit… IYKYK
I love that you are feeling lighter and more ease and some new freedom. For a long time, that felt impossible, didn't it?
Thank YOU for sharing your truth (whether that's for today or tomorrow).
And adding crossfit to the "to-try" list!
Thank you so much for sharing this Dana! I don’t like the idea of growing old alone but want to get use to the idea and be content if that’s the case. I am considering dipping my toe into the dating world, but does seem like a completely messy, foreign world. Like Julia said above, I had my soulmate and he set the bar high. 💙
My (non) advice? As you dip your toe, keep that bar high. You deserve that 💛
Thank you Dana 💕